Hate alone is not enough to nourish. But there’s rage too.

Bought myself some electronic drums. They’re fun. I’m not much of a time keeper but it helps me get this percussion out of me. I’m always walking around tappin’ shit and annoying people. It’s possible that this will quell that impulse but my guess is it’s just fuel for the fire.

I still need to set it up proper like but here’s a few photos

And here’s my first like not standard beat. As you’ll hear, I’m mesmerized by the hit hat clamp down pedal. It’s wet. I mean hot.

Pssst Pssst

I’m finishing a week here in San Deigo. It’s been a nice breather from real life. I rented a convertible and drove up the coast. Stopped at every beach on the way. Which is pretty uncharacteristic of me. I usually avoid beaches and complain about the sand. I’m a real dufus when it comes to that sometimes. I really enjoyed the day though. Just stopping on my way on a beautiful day listening to tunes and walking down the beach. Good alone time. Reflected a little. Not too much though. It’s really beautiful out here. I wonder how long that would work for me. If I’d miss the snow. The changing of the seasons. I always felt like I’d miss it but I don’t know anymore. I seem to be taking advantage of it the way I should. Going to the beach every day after work. Running along the beach? Very strange. Watching the sun set. But I’d like to take this chill factor back home with me. Treat life as I’m treating this ‘vacation’. Make the most of it. I need to rethink what the most is, but I should start with just doing stuff. Sounds like an obvious statement but for me, especially for the last few years, it’s not.
Me’s been thinking a lot about her on this trip. Missed opportunities, not being able to share this with her. Missed is not accurate, more like untaken. I can’t let that bog me down though. I have to enjoy these moments now because I can’t change the past and if I don’t enjoy them now they won’t be the past in the future. I guess now is the only opportunity to change the past that will be in the future.