Hate alone is not enough to nourish. But there’s rage too.

tired. had a great weekend with family goings on. got completely fragmented. bent. split. polluted last night at awis’ 21st birthday. oh it was jules’ wedding too. great time. they threw a good pary which is something i figured those two were good at. just seemed like they have a good time. i was binging pretty hard. got to a point where there was karaoke and long heartfelt confab with my bro. i actually tapped out. that never happens.
so anyway got a wakey from kris and things were not looking good for an honorable lift-off. i haven’t been hung over in a while which means my body has just flown the white flag figuring there’s no use, i’ll always fight back by tipping the bottle again. so a little later deej and bexter came in to awake the beast. i wasn’t tryin a hear dat scene. so she went and foraged for some addy to shrink my grey a bit. then i woke up and voided my bowels then my gut. by the time i completed my floor routine, bex and dex showed up. i popped it then asked her for a few more minutes. planned to leave at 11 AM it was 10:25. Round a bout 10:45 moses and dex showed up for the final lift off. matt packed my crap while i de-loused (another life saver). was feeling better. got on the road with john and dom by 11:08..late.. but respectable. stopped off for a coffee and a few glazers for the ride.
we took a pretty long ride and arrived at dina’s two hours later. bit into the hair of the dog and hung with the other side. had a great homemade pasta dinner. lined the stommy something fierce. left for NT and hung with the boyz on the porch once we got settled. nodded off a bit. good speaks with the gents then took another shower.
left for bklyn. got here. played some terrible guit and having some night cap. trying to bring it down. tired. not sleepy but real tired. I’m glad i have work tomorrow so that i can catch up on some sleep and get ready for next weekend. it was great to see everyone this weekend.

phew. lot’s of bright and cheery posts not so lately. a lot has happened since my last. i was bombarded with family for three weekends in a row. first my wiw sister came in and we had a nice visit. took a trip to the statue of liberty and ellis. spent a lot of time but we were both intrigued. then i met my dad in sleepy hollow for a birthday dinner for my uncle dom. he and e had a long involved conversation about religion. not exactly what i would have chosen for an 81st birthday party but they enjoyed sparring (and reveled in the fact that they share birthdays).
then my bro, sis-law, dex, cuz and wiw sis came down for a weekend. walked the bridge with the ladies, got some maggie brown fare. good times there too. never long enough but that’s my fault either for living far away or not having a nice enough place to make it uber desirable to visit. then the elder came with her kids. had a great time there too. made some music. made them walk the brooklyn bridge. all in all a great success. and i only had to give the place a stern cleaning once.
other than that, i’ve been extremely mal-motivated with work and un-work. haven’t made much headway on the imbibing front or the mitigation thereof. probaby contributing to me not getting my stuff in order. been reading a bit more so that’s good. buying and seeing music.