Hate alone is not enough to nourish. But there’s rage too.

i’m completely stressing about the building. i know it’s a good investment and this and that but we’re about to take on some more debt and we don’t have a lot of cash in the kitty. just repaired some flooring and what not and cleared out a nice piece of padding. i’ve been sitting on my ass the last year and a … uh I guess almost two years in october. so i own that failure. i haven’t been saving money or working on my place. so if i get priced out of this place i need to be able to rent it out. to do that i need to make major modifications. to do that i have to have motivation or money. so that means it’s time to stop spending and start working. i don’t have a plan. never do. i tend to shoot first and ask questions later. or probably more accurately, don’t shoot at all and don’t ask questions later, just worry and brood. so anyways. i own it. not the building but the situation.