Hate alone is not enough to nourish. But there’s rage too.

i seem to have fallen into a bit of a medically challenging pot hole on my inspiration superhighway. endured another frisbee injury which is sad. very sad. feels like maybe i sprained my wrist or something. luckily this time i was not the only participant in my injury, there was a collision involved. So i was figuring on getting it checked out when a few days later, after enjoying a delicious eggplant dream wrap, my lower lip began to swell. big. like bubba gump big. this isn’t the first, nor the worst, incident so, being prepared with some meds, i popped a few benadryl and the swelling stopped. so did my dosage. later that night i had, of all things, sushi, with soy sauce running down my larger than usual lower lip. probably not the best choice in foods after an allergic reaction but i never claimed to be all that bright. before i turned in i popped another med just to make sure that things were cool. about 2 or 3 am i woke up and had a strange sensation in my upper lip. staring back at me in the mirror is what looked like a cross between bart simpson and a fraggle (i don’t know if those were noses or upper lips). i finally broke down and called an allergist who happened to also be listed under internal medicine (two birds, one stone?). he shot me with a few things (roids) and ordered a few tests and checked my hand and ordered an xray. he tested me for a few things and confirmed things i knew make me itchy (cats, mold, mites).
next i called my insurance company to find out which facilities accepted my insurance and the girl on the phone searched around and confirmed that i was going to facilities in the ‘plan’. she mentioned that in the future i could call the facility for more up to date information because their systems are not real time. get a sense o satisfaction because i’m finally using the benefits that i’ve been working for over the last six years.
went and got an xray yesterday. blood tests this morning (filled at least ten vials). i’m starting to think this taking care of medical stuff is not that bad.

now it’s friday afternoon. i’m tired from the drugs and extra effort needed to operate with a limp arm. home from work and looking to relax with a book and i get a call from an toll free number and answer. empire blue cross blue shield has hired an independent auditing company to conduct a survey regarding their customer service. 3 days after i called them about where i can have blood tests and xrays done. i can’t imagine that anyone calling customer service locate a place to remove their colon or breast might have reacted to this but i for one was a little pissed off. leave me the hell alone. let me heal. and put some of your survey money into lobbying for universal health care or something.